(This entry is dedicated to my fellow WAHMs, especially those who heard me out and shared the load. Quits na tayo sa. Haha. ) 

Contentment

 

“I wanted to live deliberately, I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life.” –Thoreau

 

How does a busy, work-at-home mom “suck out all the marrow of life” when life currently, well, sucks? Sometimes, there are days when the work week gets a tad too stressful for my taste that I catch myself musing, “If only I could [enter desired outcome here].”

 

This week was one of those weeks.

 

Things that sucked this week

First, there was work: Being a freelancer, sometimes you just have to accept that not everything will really work out, especially when funds run a bit shorter than you’re used to and when you’re waiting on bids for potential projects. I’m living all of that right now.

Then, there was the house. Being a homemaker, house-help can become exhausting to correct… and mine was becoming exasperating to live with.  She moves like a tortoise on sedatives. ‘Nuff said.

There’s also family. As far as my husband and I are concerned, we’ve been fine this week: We went on our weekly date, talked, argued a bit, made up–you know. But for most of the week, both my husband and I felt almost terrorized by our little dynamo’s “new” antics: screaming, pouting, and a truckload of others, which confirmed that the “terrible 2s” had indeed set in early.

Other things totally blew as well. Suffice it to say, situations I found myself in seemed to be positioned to bring me down, to keep me feeling like my life–at least the next few weeks of it–would be devoid of anything positive.

 

Zeroing in on the marrow

Thankfully, inspiration comes from the most unlikely places. Last week, inspiration happened to be waiting at Jenni Epperson’s super-chic blog. In a post entitled “The Secret to Happiness,” she mentioned a personal “mantra” she lived by, which really spoke to me:

 

“Be grateful for what you have, while in pursuit of what you want.”  –Jim Rohn.

 

Reverting back to last week: What did I want?

I wanted things to get ironed out as quickly as possible. I wanted those pending bids to find their way into my inbox; for our less-than-efficient house-helper to move just a leetle bit faster so I wouldn’t have to breathe down her neck so often; for free time to redeem my soon-to-expire Nail Spa Deal Grocer Bliss Hands & Feet coupon, and for my almost-2 year-old to stop yelling at the maid, destroying yet another of his books, and putting dust balls in his mouth every five seconds.

 

Did all those things happen? Nope. In fact, I’m still in the same boat as I was last week. Except now, I’ve made a few proactive steps so that I don’t feel crummy anymore. And I’ve booked that Nail Spa thing, so I’m giddy with anticipation of freshly manicured-pedicured-pampered hands and nails.

There’s good in everything. Look for it.

Waiting for the ideal isn’t a proactive way to live my life. Nothing’s ever going to happen if I only rejoice in things that have gone right. So yeah, this week’s going to be just as jam-packed with all sorts of stress triggers and potential eye-rolling moments. Nothing I’ve not tackled before. Except I’m going at it with a renewed sense of gratitude, of intention. I’m going to look at each situation and see what goodness I can squeeze out of it.

Right now, I’m grateful–

that I have bids hanging in the balance (which means I’m a diligent, proactive writer who knows a good project when I see one);

that I have more work to juggle (which involves another new blogging job that I absolutely love!);

that I actually have a house-helper (who cleans very well, despite being a bit slow “up there”);

that I have a 22-month old who has  penchant for putting random things in his mouth, testing his limits, and making a pouty face intentionally when reprimanded (which means he’s learning all the time);

that I my husband has patiently been my punching bag for the week (it means he supremely loves, loves me).

Well, well. There’s an awful lot of goodness there now, isn’t there?

How are you squeezing out the goodness in your life?