I’ve just entered the second trimester, and while I’m still feeling a bit of the “ickies”/”baby woozies” from time to time, I’m feeling much better than I’ve been in weeks.
Last Sunday (family day at my mom’s side), I had expressed a craving for cherry pie and apple pie. Why? I have no idea. I just wanted both pies. And so, my mom, being the awesome mom that she is when any of her daughters are pregnant (because all three of us — my sis-in-laws and I — are pregnant right now), decided she’d make both pies for Sunday merienda.
Yay! (That’s the apple pie pictured above. You’ll see the cherry pie later on.)
I wouldn’t recommend indulging in a whole pie to satisfy a craving, though. (For transparency, I had a slice of each pie, then stopped!)
Cravings during pregnancy are usually connected with our need for certain nutrients, at least according to some researches. A friend of mine said I was probably needing Vitamin C this whole first trimester, since I was craving things like sinigang (a tamarind-based Filipino stew of meat and veg), calamansi juice (Philippine lime juice) and things like that.
While my pregnancy cravings may have started, there are other things on my mind, aside from Korean barbecue and a big juicy steak.
I crave for several things right now.
1. I crave simplicity.
As I’ve mentioned before, I can be a “busy-holic” at times. We’ve taken up this busy-holic tendency on Make it Blissful before, and we all agree that it’s got to have its limits. I have to say that since I wrote the first busy-holic article this April, I’ve improved. I’ve taken on less work, but I’ve still managed to meet my income targets through better-managed, high-yielding projects. I’m hoping this continues, because now I have more time to focus on this pregnancy: nap times, doctor’s appointments, etc.
But more than the simplicity of schedule, I crave for simplicity in all things.
Less stuff. More gratitude for the things we’ve already been blessed with.
Less going out, just for the sake of going out. More time for meaningful travels and trips with my family.
Less surfing and mindless social media. More time for making memories, especially with Vito, before he becomes a big brother.
I crave all these. I remind myself everyday to check if I’m purposefully working on this craving, to satisfy it properly.
2. I crave for a peaceful pregnancy.
My first pregnancy felt like it just whizzed by, and suddenly, I was about to give birth. That was five years ago, and a lot in me has changed. First, I’m 15 pounds heavier than my 1st pregnancy start weight. (I’m tipping the scale this week at 147 lbs. Yeah, I’ve no issues about the weight number.) Secondly, I feel like I’m not as fit as I was during the first pregnancy. I feel like I’m more drowsy than ever! I’m also on antibiotics now, to clear out an infection that might be harmful, if not dealt with early enough.
Right now, I’m praying that all goes well, that I’ll be able to keep to my supposedly-daily exercise of 20 minutes a day (so that I don’t lose the momentum I already have), that I’ll be able to keep more food down (and healthier food, at that! I’ve been craving some of the weirdest and sometimes unhealthiest things. Sigh). I’m also praying that I’ll be spiritually prepared for the birth.
3. … and purposeful time with Vito, before he becomes a big brother.
My soon-to-be-eldest son is at the foremost of my thoughts these days. Each day, he talks to the baby inside me, telling it — at this point, he calls it a “she” — that he loves her, and that he’s praying for her. I swear, the hormones must be kicking in for me, because every time I realize Vito is going to be a big brother, my heart jumps a bit, and I say to myself something like, “This is happening. You can’t stop it, you have to make him ready for this.”
Honestly, it’s not easy. Vito’s in his last stretch of the developmental years, and I want so bad to make sure I am the best mom-teacher for him at this time. Am I doing enough? Does he know how much I love him? Will he learn how to love his new brother or sister? Will I be able to teach him how to be a good sibling — I seemed horrible to mine, haha!
Cravings come and go — like my craving for those pies — but these deep cravings linger with me each day. I wish it was as easy to satisfy them as indulging in some pie! But I guess I’ll have to just feel my way throughout these next few months. I’m aware that a lot of things are going to change, and that I’m just at the beginning. This pregnancy is not just going to test my appetite and tolerance for food. It’s going to challenge me to find ways to fill in the deeper longings I have in my heart.
To the moms out there: Did you have these deep inner “cravings” when you were pregnant? How’d you deal with them?